Thursday, December 20, 2007

Bah humbug

Here it is, only 5 more days until Christmas, and I could NOT be in less of a holiday mood. And I feel so guilty about it. Between my mom passing on Thanksgiving, and another wonderful woman passing from cancer last weekend (cancer SUCKS, by the way), money issues, and general blah-ness, I would rather Christmas just go take a hike.
But I have absolutely no reason to feel this way. I have my health, my family is healthy, and happy. We have a roof over our heads, we have food to eat. I'm like the "Rebel without a cause". I'm the "Scrooge without a clue". I had this wonderful plan to get DH a great Christmas present & no matter how hard I planned, I still managed to screw it up. (And yes, Jeff, I know you read this, and NO I'm not giving you any clues as to what it is. I'm sure you'll still be happy, but I'm mad at myself for screwing it up.) I'm in a funk, and I need to get out of it, but I have no clue how. I'm trying to stay positive, as it is DH's birthday on Saturday. I'm focusing on trying to help my family have the best holiday we can: together.

P.S. I'm posting this about 2 weeks late because I just now saw that I never posted it to begin with. /smacks forehead

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